Well we have just finished watching Hellboy II, we being my roommate and myself. It was fair, there were some fun times that reminded me of various video game moments of my past, especially when the German man o' smoke took over one of the Golden Army warriors and used it to battle the others. Very fun, though much of the rest of the movie was quite forgettable.
Hellboy I was forgettable too, though the circumstances under which I saw it were hardly so. I was on a date with a fellow I was quite fond of, and it was my idea to go see the movie since it looked fun and I often love movies like it. It was not fun, he did not have fun, I did not have fun, and I was embarrassed to have dragged him along to the movie. It did not work out.
On another topic, has anyone ever found that skinny people (not "in shape" or "hey I have a disorder" this people, but skinny people) revel in trying to get those of us not-skinny people to eat the crap they do? One of my roommates is a skinny person. He eats anything he wants, and it does nothing to him. Since I returned from the holiday travel extravaganza I've been trying to eat healthy. No, not trying, I HAVE been eating healthy. This is something we all know how to do, it's not rocket science, and I'd like to get on track for doing it more often. Spare tires are for cars, not waistlines.
For that entire time he has been taunting me, and gleaning great joy out of the act. He teases, he purposely buys crap and offers it to me, laughing when I say "no thanks". He is evil, for evil knows itself and he knows he's being evil, and he loves it. He is not alone either, as most people I know seem to revel in dismissing my attempts to eat better and get in shape. "You look fine!" they say. Yes, thank you, I know I look "fine". Small children to not run in horror from me and no one fears that if I fall their pet's lives could be at risk. But that's hardly the point.
I don't feel healthy, I don't exercise enough, and these two things make me feel bad, not "fine". And I'm the only one that sees me naked, and right now I'm glad for that fact. Grad school makes you fat, it's official and true. And I want to counteract that.
So what do Hellboy, II or I, and my eating habits have in common? Well, in both cases the rest of the world seems to have a love affair with the mediocre. This is a love I don't share, and I'm tired of being taunted by it. For many years I've been trying to figure out a way around it, and after these many years I have finally found a way.
Ignore them.
It's against my nature, honestly, to ignore people. I don't like being shut off from people or things, I like to take part. But I've found that sometimes it's best to keep a distance. I've gotten quite good at ignoring the crap people create and cough up on TV and on the silver screen, but I've had a harder time with dealing with people face to face. I think it's time to start employing the same tactics against those that would have me remain "fine". I'm really not doing any of this for their approval, so there's no need to be listening to them.
Mindsets are everything, and my mind is quite set. Hellboy II was mediocre at best, I intend to be something more.
